“When the Lord restored the fortunes of Zion, we were like those who dream.” Psalms 126:1 ESV
This is a good description of how I’ve felt for the last 13 years of my life! When the Lord restored my life, it was like I was in a dream! The happily ever after came to me!
When the Lord restored the fortunes of Zion, we were like those who dream. Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with shouts of joy; then they said among the nations, “The Lord has done great things for them.” The Lord has done great things for us; we are glad. Restore our fortunes, O Lord, like streams in the Negeb! Those who sow in tears shall reap with shouts of joy! He who goes out weeping, bearing the seed for sowing, shall come home with shouts of joy, bringing his sheaves with him. (Psalms 126 ESV)
Have you ever gotten lost? Like on a road trip? Or hiking in the desert or in the woods? Felt that sinking in your stomach because what if you can’t find your way out? Or what about when you feel lost in your daily life? No purpose? No direction?
The worst for me was when I lost God. My dad died and I turned my back on God and ran from him. I ran so far that 26 years later, I couldn’t see him at all anymore.
So how do you find your way when you’re lost on the road or in the woods? You find someone and ask for directions. Or you pull out a compass and use it to navigate to the next landmark you can see.
But what about God? The wonder of God is that even though I couldn’t see him anymore, he never lost sight of me. He always new exactly where I was. And when I said his name, he was immediately visible to me! Boom! Found! I don’t ever have to fear losing him again!
I lift up my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, he who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord will keep you from all evil; he will keep your life. The Lord will keep your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forevermore. (Psalms 121:1-8 ESV)
The Lord will keep me. He will not discard me. Thank you Jesus for finding me in my mess 13 years ago and bringing me back. For reminding me everyday that you will keep me right next to you so I don’t ever get lost again!
p.s. today is my re-birthday 🎈
“But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust.” Matthew 5:44-45 ESV
Without integrity, I have nothing that matters. The biggest challenge in life for me is loving others. In the past, when people insulted me, I took those insults to mean I am not worthy to be loved or even liked. So I would slam the door in their faces and shut them out. But the more I shut them out, the smaller my world became, the lonelier I became.
To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable. — CS Lewis
God in my life is the only thing that has made loving and forgiving others remotely possible for me. So my prayer is that the Lord would continue to help me love others, even when they insult me, and to convict my heart when I’m about to do something wrong, to be the same inside and out, and to live for his glory, to worship him in spirit and in truth! I live my life in Jesus’ name!