five minute friday_leave_day 31

Is there anything worse than leaving?

I suppose it depends. I’m happy to leave this month behind, with all its emotional ups and downs and challenges.

I’m not happy to leave the people I love behind. It takes a toll on me, brings me to a place I don’t like, leaves me feeling lost, lonely.

I’m happy at the end of a busy work day, to leave the stress behind.

I’m not happy to leave the comfort of my bed, when the light breaks and it’s time to start all over.

I’m happy to leave this writing challenge behind, to move on to something new.

His… Michelle
Philippians 1:20

This is day 31 of #Write31Days and Five Minute Friday.

transformed by renewing my mind_day 30

ap·a·thy
ˈapəTHē/Submit
noun
lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern.
“widespread apathy among students”
synonyms: indifference, lack of interest, lack of enthusiasm, lack of concern, unconcern, uninterestedness, unresponsiveness, impassivity, dispassion, lethargy, languor, ennui; rare acedia
“widespread apathy among the voters”

I’m in the thick of it, stuck in the muck and mire of something undefinable, waiting for my enthusiasm, interest to return.

Maybe it’s because of the season? We’re coming to the end of the year. The harvesting is nearly finished. The clocks are “falling behind” this weekend. The days are getting shorter. I’ve always wished I were a bear so I could crawl into a cave for the winter and hibernate. It just seems like such a lovely idea.

So I wait for God to infuse my heart with springtime joy. I know He will. It’s just a matter of time.

His… Michelle
Philippians 1:20

This is day 30 of #Write31Days. Sharing @ Thought Provoking Thursdays.

transformed by renewing my mind_day 29

My dear faithful Father, I am so tired these last couple of days. Life is so heavy down here. Your children in West Africa are dying from a plague and my eyes are drawn to the images. Lord have mercy on them and make the plague relent. They need you! And what of the death and destruction of ISIS? And the indifference of the western world as we would rather fill our hearts and minds with gossip from the entertainment industry? We are people with heads buried in the sand. It’s all too much. I confess I want to bury my head in sand, to stop looking, stop caring, stop. There is so much wrong I don’t know how to even begin to figure out what I can do to make it right? Help me to focus on the ones in front of me. Help me to love the people I come in contact with today, forgetting about me, what I want, esteeming them better than me. I can’t do this without you. I need you Jesus. I love you. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

His… Michelle
Philippians 1:20

This is day 29 of #Write31Days.