In the ongoing saga of micey vs the IRS, I’m waiting hopefully for the school I didn’t work for in 2012 to send me a corrected form or statement declaring their mistaken reportage of income.
In my distress and fear I’ve been asking God why he would allow such a blatant mistake to occur? But I think I may have been asking the wrong question? Keep reading…
That’s what the guys in IT usually ask when the hard drive crashes on the computer. My brain is a hard drive with all kinds of viruses and bugs in it. Plus it gets easily overheated. So I shut it down last night. After the reboot, I’m feeling more encouraged. I didn’t realize how much people notice when my hard drive is crashing until I went to work and Fatmata (one of the lovely dayworkers) asked me why tears were coming out of my eyes yesterday. I told her about being stressed about a job when I go home. Then the Lord used her to speak to me. She said, Michelle, you have to trust God. He will provide a job for you. It doesn’t matter which one you want. If He doesn’t want you to have a certain job, you will not have it. If He wants you to have a certain job, you will have it. There is no use worrying about it. Just trust God. Then I hugged her and she hugged me back. I said thank you Fatmata. I needed to hear that. I love that I work with Africans. Their faith is so pure. I love my friend Fatmata. I love God for giving me African friends. And most of all, I love God. 🙂
When a man turns to Christ and seems to be getting on pretty well (in the sense that some of his bad habits are now corrected) he often feels that it would now be natural if things went fairly smoothly. When troubles come along — illnesses, money troubles, new kinds of temptation — he is disappointed. These things, he feels, might have been necessary to rouse him and make him repent in his bad old days; but why now? Because God is forcing him on, or up, to a higher level: putting him into situations where he will have to be very much braver, or more patient, or more loving, than he ever dreamed of being before. It seems to us all unnecessary: but that is because we have not yet had the slightest notion of the tremendous thing He means to make of us.
Taken from “Mere Christianity“
Please God help me hold up in the fire of learning to completely rely on You. Don’t let me burn up like chaff.