transformed by renewing my mind_day 30

ap·a·thy
ˈapəTHē/Submit
noun
lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern.
“widespread apathy among students”
synonyms: indifference, lack of interest, lack of enthusiasm, lack of concern, unconcern, uninterestedness, unresponsiveness, impassivity, dispassion, lethargy, languor, ennui; rare acedia
“widespread apathy among the voters”

I’m in the thick of it, stuck in the muck and mire of something undefinable, waiting for my enthusiasm, interest to return.

Maybe it’s because of the season? We’re coming to the end of the year. The harvesting is nearly finished. The clocks are “falling behind” this weekend. The days are getting shorter. I’ve always wished I were a bear so I could crawl into a cave for the winter and hibernate. It just seems like such a lovely idea.

So I wait for God to infuse my heart with springtime joy. I know He will. It’s just a matter of time.

His… Michelle
Philippians 1:20

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transformed by renewing my mind_day 29

My dear faithful Father, I am so tired these last couple of days. Life is so heavy down here. Your children in West Africa are dying from a plague and my eyes are drawn to the images. Lord have mercy on them and make the plague relent. They need you! And what of the death and destruction of ISIS? And the indifference of the western world as we would rather fill our hearts and minds with gossip from the entertainment industry? We are people with heads buried in the sand. It’s all too much. I confess I want to bury my head in sand, to stop looking, stop caring, stop. There is so much wrong I don’t know how to even begin to figure out what I can do to make it right? Help me to focus on the ones in front of me. Help me to love the people I come in contact with today, forgetting about me, what I want, esteeming them better than me. I can’t do this without you. I need you Jesus. I love you. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

His… Michelle
Philippians 1:20

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transformed by renewing my mind_day 28

Romans 15:1-7

The Example of Christ
15 We who are strong have an obligation to bear with the failings of the weak, and not to please ourselves. 2 Let each of us please his neighbor for his good, to build him up. 3 For Christ did not please himself, but as it is written, “The reproaches of those who reproached you fell on me.” 4 For whatever was written in former days was written for our instruction, that through endurance and through the encouragement of the Scriptures we might have hope. 5 May the God of endurance and encouragement grant you to live in such harmony with one another, in accord with Christ Jesus, 6 that together you may with one voice glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. 7 Therefore welcome one another as Christ has welcomed you, for the glory of God.

Something I’ve noticed over these last 9 years is God always hears my prayers. Always. But the ones He answers yes to the most often? The ones I pray for others.

Saturday before work I prayed to remember to show up there to serve the patients, to serve my coworkers, to serve my OR, to love on them no matter what, to forget about what I want.

I arrived at work just as the last cases were finishing. On these occasions I usually coast until the night shift nurse shows up at 7pm at which time I go home. But I worked my whole shift and didn’t do one case. Instead I picked 8 cases for Monday. It was so busy Friday the cases didn’t get picked. Imagine what happens when this occurs on a daily basis. It’s like a traffic jam that never seems to clear up.

Did I want to pick case? No. We have a team who does it. I appreciate them so much! They work hard doing a task I do not enjoy. I am so grateful for them! Nevertheless, I prayed to serve my coworkers. This is what they needed. I did it for them.

Now before you all go thinking I’m awesome, don’t! There was a lot of sighing and grumbling involved. I really don’t like picking cases. This felt sacrificial. It cost me something. It felt like the day was never going to end. But it did. Monday there were at least 8 cases that were mostly put together to save someone else time and I didn’t hear any complaints! Small miracle!

Let the transformation continue Jesus.

His… Michelle
Philippians 1:20

This is day 28 of #Write31Days. Also sharing with these: SDG Gathering Unforced Rhythyms

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