Design

‘You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.’

Psalms 139:13-16

I didn’t know or believe I was designed for a reason until the day I met Jesus. I was 42 on that day. Up until then, I thought life was just a series of luck, and I believed mine was mostly bad.

After Jesus, I almost immediately realized just how good my life had always been, I was just looking at if from a bad angle. I was filled with joy and grief all at the same time. Funny that grief, but understandable too. The Michelle who existed before Jesus, died on that day. I mourned for her, for all the bitterness she felt, all the depression, the lies she believed about herself. Those first days were intense.

Fifteen years later, I know I was designed for a reason. I am the only me planet earth will ever have. Even on dark days when I am discouraged and can’t figure out what I’m doing here, I swing back to the words of Psalm 139. I belong on planet earth. I have a purpose. Without me, the world would be a little bit darker.

Friends, this is true for you too. We may never meet IRL down here, but you belong on earth and the world is a little bit lighter because you are here, being you, sharing your words with me and all of us!

Happy FiveMinuteFriday!

Fix

Hello! My name is Michelle. I am a fixer. I am a surgical nurse. If you break it, I will be on the team that fixes it. You broke a bone? I got you. Your appendix is on fire? Got that too. God made me for this surgical role. I have always been drawn to fixing broken things. What I do is necessary and good.

But what do you do when you can’t fix something? Some things we face in life aren’t fixable, humanly speaking. Your heart is shattered because your spouse left you? I don’t know how to fix that. You got rejected for your dream job? Can’t fix that either. Let’s face it, I don’t control outcomes. Only God controls them. So what’s a fixer to do?

Sometimes the only solution to a problem is to show up. So I turn my eyes to Jesus. I remember everything He endured for me. I seek my courage from Him. I abide in Him so that when trouble comes for my friend, I am prepared to show up. Because when I show up, I know the ultimate Fixer shows up with me. And He is everything!

‘So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.’

Hebrews 4:16

Happy FiveMinuteFriday 🙂

Fresh

The calendar says it’s a fresh new year, but it sure doesn’t feel like anything fresh. To quote a surgeon I worked with this week after I said, “happy new year”. “Happy New Year!? Don’t you know it’s December 41st!?” Her words made me chuckle. “But,” I responded, “we can’t lose hope.”

Friends, I would submit to you that we can’t wait for the turning of the year to look for freshness. We aren’t made for the future. We are made for right now. As followers of Jesus, every single minute is fresh. To believe things like, next year will be better, or next month, or next week, can only lead to hopelessness. How can this thinking help you live through your right now trial?

Up until 7 years ago, I was living like a good citizen of the USA, planning all the things I would do to show God I really love him. But all the planning did was lead me to anxiety and burnout. When I truly realized the grace of God, that I am a citizen in his Kingdom, I began to practice living in this moment, learning to see it for what it is, fresh, new, life giving. In accepting ordinary, everyday, moment to moment life, I have found freedom and hope.

With this fresh perspective of the upside down Kingdom of God, I am able to make plans loosely because :

‘We can make our plans, but the Lord determines our steps.’

Proverbs 16:9

Sharing this fresh idea with the FiveMinuteFriday community. 🙂