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3 weeks post op. 4 weeks post fracture. 5 weeks until I return to work. I’ve found a new groove. I am driving people, taxi fashion, to work, to the airport, to the doctor, home. I’m having fun again. For 10 years, I’ve been asking God what else I can be, how else I can serve and love others, and he has opened the door! I am so very thankful!

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2065. 3 Doing what is right and fair is more important to the LORD than sacrifices. (‭Proverbs‬ ‭21‬:‭3‬ NCV) Dear God, Aleppo God! How long will you look down and not step in. Intervene for the poor fathers, mothers, children! God they need you! They need you to save them! There’s nothing too hard for you! What have we become down here? How long will you wait to return? We’re killing each other with a relentlessness that is only growing more rapid with each passing day. I don’t want to watch it, but I have to watch it. I am part of the problem. My own selfishness. My own inability to see past the end of my nose. God save them! Please save them! I want to do something. I wish I could go there and hold somebody, pull that person to a safe place, put them into your arms Jesus. You are the best safety there is. Please Lord. Come back.
2066. For Johanna speaking to me that you see all my tears and you’re restoring me and healing me and making everything better!!! Thank you Dad!!! “The Bible is the manger in which Christ is laid” — Martin Luther
2067. For the woman who came to hug me when I was pouring out my tears to you as my offering. Thank you Father!!! For speaking to me directly today!

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2068. 1 LORD, you are my God. I honor you and praise you, because you have done amazing things. You have always done what you said you would do; you have done what you planned long ago. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭25‬:‭1‬ NCV) O God! Please surround my boy with your legions. Put him in the center and surround him with thousands of angels to protect him. Get into the furnace with him and let him see your glory Jesus! He needs you today! He needs you far more than I need you Lord. Please! O please! Thank you for all you’re going to do in and through him. For even one soul who will get to know you Lord! Amen!
2069. Got to see my ankle for the first time since surgery and it looks pretty good even if it did have to go back in a cast for another 2 weeks.
2070. A wonderful evening spent with the prayer team praying for each other, my fav #2son, and Aleppo.

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2071. 6 He will be your safety. He is full of salvation, wisdom, and knowledge. Respect for the LORD is the greatest treasure. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭33‬:‭6‬ NCV) O Lord! You are full of salvation, wisdom, and knowledge and are my greatest treasure! As soon as I took my eyes off myself and fixed them on G and you, the answers I needed appeared! You are so amazing God! You are awesome and holy and righteous and wonderful and good! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!! I love you so much Jesus! Amen.
2072. Joined the ranks of Lyft drivers!
2073. Met a neighbor and found a friend I can help with rides because she is 86 years old. 😊

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2074. 5 But he was wounded for the wrong we did; he was crushed for the evil we did. The punishment, which made us well, was given to him, and we are healed because of his wounds. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭53‬:‭5‬ NCV) O Lord! Please don’t ever let me forget you! You are everything good in my life! You are everything good! I always think I can keep my eyes on you, fix my eyes on you, but I realize I’m powerless to even do something that simple. I need you for every little thing in my daily life and deceive myself all the time by saying, I got it this time. I don’t God! I don’t have any of it! Why is it so easy to forget? Stick with me Lord! Please! I love you!
2075. Learning how to be a taxi driver and finding new places in the valley. 🚕 And the first day of winter ❄️.
2076. Approved to drive for Veyo by a Vietnam vet and really excited to take folks to the doctor and receiving reimbursement for PALS.

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2077. 68 “Let us praise the Lord, the God of Israel, because he has come to help his people and has given them freedom. 69 He has given us a powerful Savior from the family of God’s servant David. (‭Luke‬ ‭1‬:‭68-69‬ NCV) O Lord you are powerful and good. You’ve saved me and given me freedom. Thank you! Thank you for opening the doors. Thank you for allowing me to still help people. Thank you for the new opportunities. I love you!
2078. The awesome people I met today all over the city.
2079. Rain ☔️. A wonderful Christmas 🎄 gift 🎁.

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2080. “While we were God’s enemies, he made us his friends through the death of his Son. Surely, now that we are his friends, he will save us through his Son’s life. And not only that, but now we are also very happy in God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we are now God’s friends again.” Romans‬ ‭5:10-11‬ ‭NCV‬‬
2081. Met a woman who just got into a home after being homeless for 5 years and I got to provide a ride home for her.
2082. Day before birthday 🎉 dinner 🍴 with favorite #1son.

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2083. On this day in the city of Dover a child was born and he was called Robert. 31 years of unique, challenging, special, sorrowful, joyful, intelligent, rebellious, kind, loyal, skeptical, scoffing, loving noise! ❤❄️🎄❄️❤
2084. 25 “I, I am the One who erases all your sins, for my sake; I will not remember your sins. 26 But you should remind me. Let’s meet and decide what is right. Tell what you have done and show you are right. (‭Isaiah‬ ‭43‬:‭25-26‬ NCV) Dear God. 31 years ago, you gave me the Christmas 🎄 gift 🎁 of a lifetime. Literally a lifetime. I’m so thankful for this man. We’ve watched him all his life go from chatty and fun loving to angry and rebellious to thoughtful and careful to mature and stable. Now Lord I ask that you open his eyes to see the beauty of you and to fall in love with you like me and his brother. How long will it be before he says yes to you? How much longer Lord? I know you will make it happen. I know you are able. I know you will do it. Will it be soon? Will we get to see his magnificent conversion? O how special it would be if today was his day of salvation! Let it be today please! Amen!
2085. Well it wasn’t today, but I know it will be someday and it will be a glorious day and I can’t wait to see it happen!!!

Happy Sunday! Merry Christmas 🎁🎄!!!

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35 weeks in Arizona. I’m hiking farther. Beginning my section hike of the Arizona Trail next weekend. Woot Woot! I am so very thankful!

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1143. “You call me Teacher and Lord, and you are right, for so I am. If I then, your Lord and Teacher, have washed your feet, you also ought to wash one another’s feet. For I have given you an example, that you also should do just as I have done to you.” John‬ ‭13:13-15‬ ‭ESV‬‬
1144. Trekking poles.
1145. The scooter.

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1146. “To do righteousness and justice is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice.” Proverbs‬ ‭21:3‬ ‭ESV‬
1147. Starting a prayer group.
1148. No call this week!

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1149. “What has been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done, and there is nothing new under the sun. Is there a thing of which it is said, “See, this is new”? It has been already in the ages before us.” Ecclesiastes‬ ‭1:9-10‬ ‭ESV‬‬
1150. The way Abby + Suzie stare at me in the morning because they want to eat.
1151. I can’t remember the last time it rained.

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1152. Lotion that smells like heaven. A pleasing aroma.
1153. Even when the hike falls through.
1154. “But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere.” James‬ ‭3:17‬ ‭ESV‬‬

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1155. When Thursday is really Friday.
1156. Personal Location Beacons.
1157. Omelettes.

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1158. “For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.’ And they began to celebrate.” Luke‬ ‭15:24‬ ‭ESV‬‬
1159. Getting to know a hiking friend.
1160. “We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed;”. ‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭4:8-9‬ ‭ESV‬‬

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1161. Even thought the event GPS said 20.5 mile and was wrong, I still hiked farther than before.
1162. This hike boosted my confidence to do passage 1 of the AZT next week!
1163. I’m doing passage 1 of the AZT next week! Woohoo!

Happy Easter!

Weighing in on ‘Grey’ Matters

50 Shades of Grey. Everyone is talking about it. I won’t read it. I won’t watch it.

I don’t even normally comment about these things. What’s my one opinion in a sea of opinions worth anyway?

But this matters to me. I am so against this. I would implore you to stay away from this with all my heart. Why?

Let me tell you a personal story. It’s not pretty. Brace yourself.

When I was 12 years old, I found my dad’s porn stash. Oh, it included all the usual suspects — Playboy, Penthouse. But it also included the seedier, more heinous suspects — Hustler, BDSM rags, x-rated novels. I’m sure he thought he hid them well, like a man hides a gun in a shoe box on the top shelf of a closet. But children are curious little creatures, wanting to pull these weapons of destruction from their hiding spots, to examine them closely, not realizing they’re holding a deadly weapon in their hands.

Now, now Michelle. Should you really be lumping porn in with firearms?

Um, yeah!

Finding that porn stash changed my life almost irrevocably. I was completely fascinated with the twisted ways of the sex acts I was reading about. Those stories awakened a darkness in me I didn’t understand or know how to control. They led me down a path of fantasies I longed to fulfill which led to an extremely, sexually abusive marriage that ended in divorce.

But it didn’t stop there. After the marriage ended, I hopped from bed to bed to bed, addicted to the weird and depraved, never understanding what a truly loving relationship was. Like the old film Looking for Mr Goodbar, I was searching for true love in all the wrong places when I wouldn’t know true love if it walked up to me and screamed “here I am!”

My last relationship ended in 2003, after I obsessively tried to hold onto it for 2 years because I was terrified to let it go. But it was never good. It was empty, meaningless sex. I called him my ‘sex friend.’ We were ‘friends with benefits.’ But who it was benefiting was him, not me.

None of the relationships I’ve had have ever benefited me, save One. I have been celibate these last 12 years now, stayed far away from the opposite sex, the thought of intimacy with a man chills me to the bone because I’ve only ever been hurt by them.

So I beg you, I plead with you, stay away from 50 Shades of Grey. Keep your children away from it. Guard your hearts dear ones. It’s time to stand against the enemy.

I still live with the struggle and temptation of the lewd and lascivious, lust vs love issue. I share this story with you because if my story would help even one person avoid this disastrous trap, then it is worth sharing.I share this story with you because if you have suffered like I have, I want you to know you are not alone. And I share this story to praise God for saving me from this self destruction. The battles may continue, but I know my Redeemer lives! I know He loves me with an everlasting love. He loves me the way I always hoped a man would love me, only better! For this I am deeply thankful.

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