transformed by renewing my mind_day 6

What is the story of your life? The pastor asked this question yesterday. Then he told us a story about a guy who came to him who has believed his life is a mistake. He heard this from his parents when he was a kid. Then he heard it from his boss when his boss said he made a mistake hiring him. It’s the word he latched onto.

It seems to me my brain is hardwired to latch onto the negative. If things can go wrong, they will go wrong, looking for the worst in others instead of the best, expecting others to let me down, believing things are too good to be true. I have a deep mistrust of anything good.

The saddest thing about being hardwired for the negative is it keeps me from seeing all the good things that have happened over the years. Like always having work, a home, food, transportation, healthy kids, a family, friends. And this negative thinking robs me of the joy of what I have right in front of me.

Sure, there’s been hard stuff to deal with, but overall, my life has been smooth, full of happy memories.

What is the story of my life? I know what I want it to be. I want it to be a story filled with love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, kindness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. I want people to see Jesus in me. 1 Peter says I am chosen to proclaim the excellencies of Him who called me out of darkness into marvelous light!

As each day passes, the chemicals in my brain become more balanced. As the chemicals are balancing, my focus is shifting, changing the way I think, perceive the world. I am becoming cautiously optimistic.

His… Michelle
Philippians 1:20

This is day 6 in the #Write31Days challenge. Also linking with Monday Musings and Unforced Rhythms.

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