transformed by renewing my mind_day 22

Maybe this medication was making me feel worse because it was overtreating my symptoms?

Maybe it’s time for me to be okay with not being okay again?

I am very disappointed in the way this whole thing has progressed, disappointed in the doctor, disappointed in the medication.

The worst thing about this particular med is it made me feel like another person. I have not been myself at all. And for what?

I am highly sensitive, introverted, moody, anxious. But the only thing that has really been affecting my life really negatively lately is the anxiety. So why did she think it was a good idea to treat me with an atypical antipsychotic?

This doctor truly let me down. From not returning phone calls to giving advice like “Well cut the dose in half for a few days then stop taking it and if you would like to try something else schedule an appointment.” Can you say “unconcerned” with me?

Meh.

Being a healthcare professional myself, I say this all the time – they don’t call it practicing medicine for no reason.

Anyway, I’m really tired of all the complaining I’ve been doing this month, really tired of trying to fix myself when I need to fix my eyes on Jesus, be forever grateful for who He is, what He’s done, what He continues to do for me! So that’s enough of that! Onward Christian soldiers!

His… Michelle
Philippians 1:20

This is day 22 of #Write31Days. Also sharing with the #TellHisStory crowd.

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