‘You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.’Psalms 139:13-16
I didn’t know or believe I was designed for a reason until the day I met Jesus. I was 42 on that day. Up until then, I thought life was just a series of luck, and I believed mine was mostly bad.
After Jesus, I almost immediately realized just how good my life had always been, I was just looking at if from a bad angle. I was filled with joy and grief all at the same time. Funny that grief, but understandable too. The Michelle who existed before Jesus, died on that day. I mourned for her, for all the bitterness she felt, all the depression, the lies she believed about herself. Those first days were intense.
Fifteen years later, I know I was designed for a reason. I am the only me planet earth will ever have. Even on dark days when I am discouraged and can’t figure out what I’m doing here, I swing back to the words of Psalm 139. I belong on planet earth. I have a purpose. Without me, the world would be a little bit darker.
Friends, this is true for you too. We may never meet IRL down here, but you belong on earth and the world is a little bit lighter because you are here, being you, sharing your words with me and all of us!