Transition Is Hard

This week has been a whirlwind of activity. On Saturday, I moved from Georgia to Florida. It was an exhausting day. I was super tired because I spent the previous night hanging out with a dear friend, so I went to sleep way later than usual. But I still got up as early as usual (think 3rd watch of the night). Loading up the car was a heavy physical task. I don’t own much, but what I do own fits into totes and when they are full, they are heavy.

Car loaded, I made my way to visit another dear friend on the way. Then I spent an additional 5.5 hours on the road to my new dwelling place, in the middle of nowhere, Florida. I mean seriously. It was and wasn’t what I was expecting. I found myself reacting in all those ways again, expectation rearing its ugly head.

With only one day of rest spent with my Gville contingent, I got up Monday to head to the new job, no expectations other than to find the way. I spent the day in orientation, feeling only disorientation, worry, and sadness, wondering why I have so much trouble with transition? I really do love traveling. I really do love meeting new people. I should be overjoyed because I’m only 1 hour away from my people. What gives Lord?

Today, I have so many questions running around in my brain. What’s going on with me? Why do I struggle this way every time I move? Why am I focused on what’s gone instead of the adventure that is today, that is yet to be?

The struggle to unconditionally surrender the past is real. I am still in the thick of it. I am still committed to giving it all to Jesus. I trust him. I believe he will help me. I have hope in him.

‘This is what the Lord says: “Stop at the crossroads and look around. Ask for the old, godly way, and walk in it. Travel its path, and you will find rest for your souls… Jeremiah 6:16

~m

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2 thoughts on “Transition Is Hard

  1. Praying your transition to this new place will be swift and the dark oppressive stuff will clear. Appreciate you posting this so can can pray for you more specifically. Dm

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