This past week has been a whirlwind. I took a long look at my budget and finally decided I have to make a change in my work situation if I am going to accomplish my goal of being debt free by next year. It’s taken me two months to make this decision because the pay at my current job is great, I don’t have to ever be on call, and I don’t work weekends or holidays. There’s just one small problem that really wouldn’t be a problem if I wasn’t focused on getting out of debt by next year. I’m full time, but I’m working part time hours. You see, next year I want to walk the Appalachian Trail. So it’s really important to me to be debt free because the more I owe next year, the more I will need to save for a higher budget.
Well, I am finally jumping off the fence that I should have jumped off of two months ago. I’m taking the bull by the horns. I’m making a work change that will probably make me more tired than I’ve been in a long time. But it has to be done.
Just arriving at making this choice has left me feeling tired. I won’t lie, making this kind of decision really stresses me out. Getting the ball rolling really stresses me out because the person who looks for the work I want is like a whirling dervish and always leaves my head spinning! But, I haven’t made this choice lightly and I’m certainly not rushing into anything.
All I need or want now is for my friends and family to be supportive. But even that is hard to come by. We’re all so busy trying to meet each other’s expectations we don’t even really know how to be supportive or encouraging anymore. But God.
31 But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31 NKJV)
I watched a short devotion from John Piper explaining how our God didn’t create us to work for him. That our God, in fact, searches the whole earth looking for those who are searching for him so that he can work for us! Our God wants to work for us! Wow!
4 For since the world began, no ear has heard and no eye has seen a God like you, who works for those who wait for him! (Isaiah 64:4 NLT)
Thank you Lord that you are the real Lord. That you didn’t create this world to make us into slaves who serve you. That you search the whole earth 🌏 looking for those of us who are searching for you so that you can work for us and not have us work for you! What a beautiful, amazing concept! We’re so busy down here working to earn things, trying to please people, trying to make everyone around us like us and love us that we’re burning out and exhausted. But you God! I don’t ever ever have to work for you! You say in your word you have come to work for me! To love me for me! Who could ever love me the way you love me!? Not even the people down here who I know love me. No one can love me the way you love me! Thank you Lord! Thank you ABBA!