Faith, I gotta have faith — George Michael
This is the song I hear every time I think of the word faith. I’m not sure why? Maybe because he passed away so recently? But I digress. Faith is the word I’m living by for 2017. Why?
My faith got derailed back in the summer when my little sister was first diagnosed with breast cancer. I let the door of my heart open a little too much and that old enemy fear got his foot in the door. Things just kind of snowballed from there. Next up was learning I have a gene mutation that could change my health. Then there was the bad tooth incident that brought an unexpected financial burden. Followed by breaking my ankle which has left me temporarily jobless.
All these things added up together to leave me in such a state of fear I couldn’t stop crying for 2.5 weeks. That’s a long time to be panicked.
The other thing it made me realize? My favorite #2son is about to embark on a mission to the middle east to share the Gospel. This old enemy, fear, derailed me from being a prayer warrior for my boy! Suddenly I found myself repenting! Begging God to forgive me for losing faith, asking him to focus on our boy instead of me, rebuking the enemy out loud, with such anger and vehemence in my parking lot, that if anyone was out there that night they probably thought I was crazy! And I was! Crazy angry for letting fear paralyze me for so many months!
Not anymore! I am refocused. With the Lord’s help, I WILL replace fear with faith! Because faith is the opposite of fear! So yeah. Faith. It’s my word for 2017.
Happy faith filled Wednesday!
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