“For the whole law is fulfilled in one word: “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.””Galatians 5:14 ESV
Why does life have to be so full of contradictions? Paradoxes? Why does everything down here have to be a two way street? Mutually beneficial? Quid pro quo? I want to be loved, but in order to be loved, I have to love others first, but then I love them and the love is rejected, which makes me feel rejected so I withdraw my love which leads me back to being unloved. And I know I should love others anyway because I can’t be the only one on the planet who deals with this. Right? And if there’s one thing you’ve taught me these last ten years, it’s that I cannot live like a hermit. Even though my flesh screams to live as a hermit. It’s so frustrating to me that I need people. And it’s even more frustrating that I focus on the rejection instead of the acceptance because for every rejection there are ten acceptances. And what do I do with people who say they want to be my friend, but their actions say something different to me? Those are the most troubling of all! I’m so glad you know how to make sense of the things that trouble me Father. I love you!