The One About Legion

As I continue to struggle with mood swings, withdrawing into my head, I recently found myself wondering about that guy possessed by demons, Legion. 

They came to the other side of the sea, to the country of the Gerasenes. And when Jesus had stepped out of the boat, immediately there met him out of the tombs a man with an unclean spirit. He lived among the tombs. And no one could bind him anymore, not even with a chain, for he had often been bound with shackles and chains, but he wrenched the chains apart, and he broke the shackles in pieces. No one had the strength to subdue him. Night and day among the tombs and on the mountains he was always crying out and cutting himself with stones. And when he saw Jesus from afar, he ran and fell down before him. And crying out with a loud voice, he said, “What have you to do with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High God? I adjure you by God, do not torment me.” For he was saying to him, “Come out of the man, you unclean spirit!” And Jesus asked him, “What is your name?” He replied, “My name is Legion, for we are many.” And he begged him earnestly not to send them out of the country. Now a great herd of pigs was feeding there on the hillside, and they begged him, saying, “Send us to the pigs; let us enter them.” So he gave them permission. And the unclean spirits came out and entered the pigs; and the herd, numbering about two thousand, rushed down the steep bank into the sea and drowned in the sea. The herdsmen fled and told it in the city and in the country. And people came to see what it was that had happened. And they came to Jesus and saw the demon-possessed man, the one who had had the legion, sitting there, clothed and in his right mind, and they were afraid. And those who had seen it described to them what had happened to the demon-possessed man and to the pigs. And they began to beg Jesus to depart from their region. As he was getting into the boat, the man who had been possessed with demons begged him that he might be with him. And he did not permit him but said to him, “Go home to your friends and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how he has had mercy on you.” And he went away and began to proclaim in the Decapolis how much Jesus had done for him, and everyone marveled. (‭Mark‬ ‭5‬:‭1-20‬ ESV)

I wonder what happened to him? I know he was instantly made right in the head because I believe the Bible is the true word of God. But what became of him? Did he find true freedom? Was he able to forget his past, all that transpired in his life until that point? Did he meet people that were so in awe of his testimony they wished they had a testimony like that?

Or was he like me, knowing deep down the miraculous happened, the demons were cast out, but struggling with the daily triggers that threaten to suck me back into a place that’s hard to leave? Knowing that all those things made me who I am but wishing I could have the testimony of the ones who were always close to the Lord?

Started therapy. Again. I really need to stick to it this time. 

Lord change me. I really want to change. Change is hard. Give me courage to see what you see. 

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2 thoughts on “The One About Legion

  1. Stick to it! Our bodies change, hormones change us… the mood swings aren’t all mental. Going back on meds and staying on them along with therapy does help push through for better days! xo

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