I think one of the reasons I avoid people is all the drama they create.
I hate the conflict, backbiting, arguing, noisiness of all the drama that takes place around the human race. When people start fighting with each other, I run the other way.
I don’t want to choose sides. I don’t want to participate.
And yet, what’s a girl supposed to do? In a broken world, there is always going to be drama.
I have mostly left Facebook because of said drama. I get enough IRL. I do not need to extend it to internet life as well.
Now I have stopped following a very good Bible study blog because the ladies split up and their backbiting has actually spilled onto their blog with what appears to me to be finger pointing and blame being thrown around. The solution? Delete.
Gah. Sometimes I feel like a deer. My habitat is shrinking on a daily basis. Soon I’ll have no place left to go for peace.
And what about my own drama? As much as I want to tell my story, am I not just adding to the noise? I feel like it doesn’t matter how many disclaimers I add, someone reading is bound to be offended by what I have to say.
There’s a line from the movie “A Few Good Men”. Tom Cruise tells Jack Nicholson he wants the truth. Jack Nicholson shouts, “You want the truth!? You can’t handle the truth!”
And we can’t. Handle the truth. I can’t.
The post I wrote on Saturday said too much. I should have kept it to myself. It was too much truth for me, let alone you.
Letting the Light into my dark heart is scary. I know there is no condemnation from Jesus. But there is condemnation from man. They condemn me. I condemn them.
What’s a girl like me to do when alone feels the safest, yet loneliest place to be?
Linking with Kelli @Chronicles of Grace.