Thank you so much for staying with me Friday Michelle. You know she died the next day? was the greeting I received today as I walked into the locker room.
What!? I was totally taken aback. I just did not see that coming. She died!? I usually get a sense about these things. It’s not something I enjoy. But not with this girl. Not this beautiful disaster.
The details are vague. Apparently, she began hemorrhaging again. She came back to surgery for an emergency splenectomy, stabilized again, but during the evening tanked and died during resuscitation.
The news actually dropped me into a chair. How could this be God? Surely you heard my prayer that day? What bothers me, what breaks my heart most is not knowing her eternal outcome. I know I’m supposed to trust God for those, but man it’s hard. Then I remembered Sunday, the verses out of Romans 9, God’s sovereign choice.
Still, it breaks my heart that a 21 year old drug addict, a virtual stranger lost a baby one minute and her life practically the next minute. How could this happen? What happened in this poor girl’s life to lead her here? Did she not have even one person to love her? Really love her?
This is so senseless to me. I feel like I should do something. But what or how? I do not know. The Lord is doing something in my heart. He’s letting me see things I haven’t seen before. At risk youth.
Do you think if this girl had just one person, one, invest in her life, she would have had a different outcome? I think yes. But I also know she could have had bunches of people pulling for her. You still have to want to change, want to live, want to get better.
God is up to something. He’s got my attention.
Linking with Jennifer Dukes Lee for Tell His Story.