Hi my name is Michelle and I am repressed anger.
Taken from Taming Your Anger by Dick Innes
One of the worst things we can do with our anger is to repress and deny it. Long-term repressed anger turns into hostility and contaminates everything we do.
Hostility shows itself in many ways: a negative, critical attitude, nagging, sarcasm, gossip, resentment, hatred, slamming doors, shouting, taking it out on the children, kicking the cat, aggressive driving, childish “I’m hurt!” crying, rebellion, denial of sex in marriage, deviant behavior (prostitutes, for example, are often angry at their fathers), putting people down, constantly running late, passivity, withdrawal, rage, and even criminality. The list is endless.
I know I’m not the only person on planet earth who is hostile. I know I’m not the only person on planet earth who has repressed anger. And I guess I’m not the only person on planet earth who doesn’t know how to express anger in a healthy way? But how does one do it? Express anger in a healthy way? Is there any healthy way to express anger?
Here’s my problem as far as I can comprehend it. I am more passive than assertive. I don’t think I’m aggressive at all or even passive aggressive for that matter. But being passive, I absorb and absorb and absorb until my head might actually explode. Then when I’m ready to explode, I don’t know what to do!?
I end up displacing this anger on the unassuming masses. This is so bad and so wrong! Here they are, approaching me with a smile, completely unaware of the fact my head is about to explode. Then they are greeted with the look. (To understand what I mean, please see number 1 from my list of peculiar things.)
I’m fairly certain this is also one of the causes of the depression I struggle with.
So the question is, what’s a girl to do?
Well, what does God say about anger?
Proverbs 14:29 Whoever is slow to anger has great understanding, but he who has a hasty temper exalts folly.
Ouch! That hurts. I tend to be quickly angered.
Proverbs 19:11 Good sense makes one slow to anger, and it is his glory to overlook an offense.
Ouch again! I’ve got some serious changing to do.
1Peter 2 1 So put away all malice and all deceit and hypocrisy and envy and all slander. 2 Like newborn infants, long for the pure spiritual milk, that by it you may grow up into salvation— 3 if indeed you have tasted that the Lord is good.
I know I have tasted that the Lord is good!
I know the first step in changing is admitting you have a problem. I definitely have a problem. Now to pray and ask God to help me change. I can see I will need a lot more spiritual counseling regarding this matter as well.
And you dear readers, how do you handle anger? Do you have any wisdom for a girl who wants to change?