Tonight is my last night shift for the foreseeable future. Thank God! There’s just something about working overnight that doesn’t agree with me. Perhaps it’s the fact I don’t sleep well at all during the day. Working night shift is like having jet lag without going anywhere!
After reading last night’s blog post, I’m obviously stuck focusing on what’s wrong with me. (It’s the pessimist in me) What’s wrong with me is really what’s wrong with everyone. I am a sinner, first and foremost, looking for some external thing to blame it on. I suppose sinner is the only negative label I should even consider. Instead of focusing on finding an external reason to explain the unexplainable, I should be focusing on how to change. To find a label to put on my problem is to imply no reason to change. The only thing the label does is allow me to make excuses for my behavior.
I’m not the person I could be, but I’m better than I used to be. I need to stop looking back. I need to “press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus”. (Philippians 3:14) I need to remember the people in the Bible who changed, the ones who owned their sin and repented and changed. I don’t want to see my sin and makes excuses. I want to change.
So I’m choosing to change my perspective. Again. Change is good. God is good. Life is good.