Did you ever meet a person and instantly feel something was wrong with him? Like he’s wearing a mask of deception, pretending to be something he isn’t, posing? It happens to me more than I like. Maybe because of my history in dealing with bad people, I’ve developed a keen sense of reading a person? Or maybe it’s the Holy Spirit whispering warning to me to be on guard? Whatever it is, I struggle in dealing with it now, given the directive of my Savior to love everyone, including my enemies.
After I became a Christian, I returned to a state of naïveté that was almost the destruction of my fragile new faith. I decided that every Christian I met must be a good person if they said Jesus was their Savior, right? Boy was I wrong. I’ve met a few “Christians” over the years that set off that warning signal in my gut. I’ve tried to convince myself I’m wrong, but dang it all if they didn’t turn out to be the wolves I thought they were.
I’m always sad when I’m right. I’m always deeply disappointed too. I often wonder why God would choose to allow a cynic like me to have this gift? I never really know what to do when I find out I’m right about someone? Do I steer clear of him? Do I blow the whistle on him? Do I warn others to watch their back? And how do you do that without being a gossip or slanderous? Jesus did warn us to watch out for the enemy among us. He comes to steal, kill, and destroy. Am I paranoid? I don’t think so. I’m acutely perceptive. But how do I navigate the world of unconditional love when I don’t trust the motives of some?
This is what I’ve been thinking about today.
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