Yesterday, I had my butt kicked at work again. It was another 14 hour day. This time I did 2 hearts. I did one early in the morning until 2pm and then I took over the other case at 3pm and we worked until 915pm. This is what I’ve been waiting for since I started working at this job almost 5 months ago. I knew it was just a matter of time before it would come my way. Hard work. I don’t mind hard work if I know there is an end in sight. There is always an end in sight.
This has been a big test for me of the things I told the Lord would be different at this job. I told Him I wouldn’t whine and complain anymore. I told Him I would work hard at this job. I told Him I wouldn’t call out sick just because I don’t feel like working. I told Him I would submit to my leaders and do the things they require me to do. I also told Him I would make more of an effort to reserve some strength for my boys. That’s a hard one after working for 14 hours.
So, when the day was finally over, I called the shortboy to say I was coming home and he asked me to go to the drug store for Nyquil. AH! I said all I wanted to do was drag myself home and get into bed. He said, “please mom!” Then I said, “I gotta go, bye!” AH! I grumbled in my head, asked the Lord to forgive me and went to the drug store for Nyquil. I spent about 15 minutes with the boys yesterday. I was so tired. I also checked my voicemail and discovered a message from some creditor about a medical bill that never got payed because they sent the bill to the wrong insurance company. Now they’re bugging me 2 years after the fact. It seems like I have to be the one who fixes their mistake!
I dragged myself into bed at 1015pm. I just prayed to the Lord and asked Him to fix everything and to give me strength to wake up today and get to work. I was so tempted to call out sick. I was so tired and even now I am tired. I asked Him to take care of the creditor problem. I told Him I was worried about it, but I don’t want to be worried about it because He has everything under control. Finally I went to sleep. I woke up 6 hours later, still tired. I dragged myself out of bed. I took the little dogs out. I came in to do my devotions before work. I checked my email and the above verse was in the inbox! What an awesome message to receive from the Lord! What perfect timing! I don’t have to fear anything! God will give me strength! He will hold me up with His righteous right hand! Who is at His right hand? Jesus!
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.”
The Lord doesn’t just tell us He will give us strength, He commands us to be strong and courageous! He commands us to be strong 30 times in the ESV translation alone. Strength is something He gives us, but also something we should actively strive for. It is also a promise. God is with us wherever we go, so be strong and courageous! James MacDonald was preaching about this very thing in his sermon I listened to this morning!
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might.
On my own I am weak, but I am strong in the Lord! These were just the words the Lord knew I needed to hear today! He sustained me! Thank You Abba for Your strength and Your unfailing love and mercy! You are an AWESOME God! How I love You! You carried me through long days and have given me strength! You have heard my cries and answered my prayers! Yours is all the power, glory, and majesty forever!!! Amen! I hope you will consider the Lord, what He has done, and RUN after Him with all the strength you can possibly muster. He will carry you when you think you just can’t go another step!
Yours in Christ,