what’s in a name?

One of my readers asked me where I got the name micey, is it a clever nickname? Well it is indeed a clever nickname. My real name is Michelle. You know that because I sign my posts with my real name. I am Missy to my immediate family.

micey was born about 10 years ago, long before I knew the Lord. I was an extremely lonely person who doesn’t like people in the flesh. I was totally enthralled with the internet and newsgroups because it was a way to have community without actually having to be in a room full of people. I am tattooed, so I gravitated to newsgroups relating to tattoos. There was a very charismatic fellow in this newsgroup that people loved to hate. He is extremely gifted and creative. He started an ezine for tattooed, pierced, and underground “body modification”. This then led him to start a social network for the same people. It’s like facebook for the misunderstood, the misfits. I was captivated and joined.

My screen name was micehell, a twist on the letters of my name. She was my evil twin, my dark half, the part of me I knew existed, but nobody knew or understood. This community allowed me to be somebody I knew should never be allowed to be seen in real life. People on the site nicknamed me micey. I did a lot of venting there. I did a lot of ranting there. I liked that community because it had shock value. I was so jaded and bitter and thought so little of myself. Many of us had that in common.  Initially, I felt like I found a home. But I never really fit in there either. I was just living vicariously through the lives of other people. I was a voyeur. For as dark and brooding as I was to the people in the real world, I realized I wasn’t even close to being as dark and brooding as some of the people I met in this community. I was far more normal than I gave myself credit.

After I became a Christian, I stayed with this community for another couple of years. I shared the love of Christ. I told them about Jesus. I loved them and still love them. But there finally came a point when the Lord impressed upon me that I couldn’t reach them. When they began to charge money to use the site, I asked myself if I really wanted to contribute to something that I believed was more harmful than helpful? So I left.

Amazingly, I am still good friends with several folks I met in that community. Most of them were Christians too who were caught up in the community aspect of it all like I was. I’m glad I was part of that community. I learned things there. I learned things about myself. I learned what I was really missing while I was with them. I wish I still had my blog posts from that time. There is a very distinct difference in my writing from before Christ to now. You can clearly see when I crossed over from darkness into marvelous light! It’s astounding!

Now you know  little bit more about me. God has been so  awesome to me!  God is good! God saves! Just you try to find Him and see if He doesn’t come through for you like He did for me. He will blow your mind! Thanks God!!!

His… Michelle

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